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Well I now have extra motivation to keep up with this health/fitness journey…i just got tickets to go to the Caribbean in January.  EEeek.  Now I will be wearing a swimsuit in front of friends, my boyfriend and strangers.  The strangers and boyfriend part doesn’t bother me so much, but there will be 3 other couples going with us, and well….I am going to have to see them again after the trip.  I don’t want to embarass myself on the beach, especially because some of those girls have great bodies.  Now I don’t think I will be able to reach my goal weight/figure by January (as nice as that would be) but I certainly don’t want to be looking like a heffer either.  What makes me even more nervous is that this is right after Christmas.  I just don’t want to feel like a rabbit, or like I am snubbing friend’s and family’s fabulous home cooked holiday meals. 

Don’t get me wrong, this isn’t completely a pity party, I am excited to be going.  I think it will be a lot of fun.  I just don’t want to be completely self conscious the entire time next to my friends.  I know this sounds self centered.  But I can’t help but feel embarassed.  Especially because I know what I used to be not too long ago, and this just isn’t it. 

A part of me wants to do some sort of get slim quick diet fad, to get me into that bikini, and the other (more rational) side of me realizes that I will only be hurting myself, and probably gain it all back. 

 Ugh, I thought I at least had until Summer to worry about revealing clothing and swimsuits.  Ideally, I would have reached my goal by then, and been showing off.  Now I have to make sure I am not the one people see on the beach and cringe. 

Today was a good day.  I did the shoulders and arms workout, and it felt really good.  I managed to finish the entire workout, which surprised me because I don’t have a lot of upper body strength.  I’m going to give myself a pat on the back today, since tomorrow, I am not sure if I am going to have the strength to do it.  By muscles are still sore from working out the past few days, but I think by body is finally starting to accept it’s new role.  It’s not as though I am giving my body a lot of choice. 

I went to the health food store to buy some healthier food, so that I can no longer make excuses.  I did a lot of research online to learn what products I should be buying.  It was a little disappointing because it seems as though a lot of the products are not available in Canada.  I really wanted to try House Foods Tofu Shirataki Noodles.  I am hoping that I can find them somewhere.  If not I will look into buying them online.  I went for a glutten free pasta alternative instead.  It has more calories than the House Foods Pasta, but it’s at least a healthier option, since I am not ready to give up pasta.  So the search continues. 

So far so good.  I have managed to stay on track! 

So I am in some post workout pain from yesterday.  I am glad that I didn’t let that stop me from working out today.  But I will say, that it doesn’t make it easier to move, when you feel like everything hurts.   

So today was my first plyometrics routine that I have never done before this system.  (To be honest, I had never heard of it before this system).  Well, I can see why people have called it a killer.  When the video first started, I gave it my all, and that was my downfall, and the beginning of the end for me.  By the end, I couldn’t keep up with all the exercises.  I did as many reps of each as I could, but ended up running in place to fill up some of the time, and at least keep my heart rate up.  I would say that in total I did about 80% of the video.  This was disappointing.  I think my head still feels like it’s as fit as it used to be.  I honestly thought that this video wouldn’t be that bad, and that it was just people who aren’t used to who complained, and couldn’t keep up.  I can now eat my words, and honestly say - That was Freakin Hard!!!  Hopefully, as I progress on this system, I will be able to finish the video.  If I am lucky, maybe I can finish it without doing any of the modifications!!  That would be super exciting for me!

 On a side note, this my second day trying to achieve my goal, and my second day with with BuddySlim.  I must say you guys are a really great community and I am glad I found you guys.  It’s quite inspirational to read some of the success stories.  I really didn’t think anyone would read my blog, and now that I have new buddies, I know I have to keep loging in, which means I have to keep up! 

Here is to hoping that it is going to hurt less!

So, today is day one of my journey. 

Although I have completed “day one” many times before, it is often the motivation that lacks and causes me to make up excuses to slow down and eventually curb any progress that had been made.  It’s almost as though I am sabotaging my own success.  That is not to say that the desire to succeed isn’t there.  Because it certainly is.  However, I often find myself latching on to small successes to justify bad eating habits or not getting my butt into gear. 

I bought the p90X system, and did my first workout today.  When I started, I didn’t know what to expect.  I can’t say that I am in the best shape of my life…that’s why I am here, doing this right.  But I am fairly active (even if it is in spurts).  I went back and forth with which program I wanted to do, and decided that I would do a modified classics/lean program, that I designed.  I still ahve that fear of bulking up, but don’t want the program to be completely cardio based.  Well today was chest and back and then an ab work out.  They totally kicked my butt.  Especially the ab workout.  I thought I had pretty strong abs until today.  I am excited/scared to do the plyometrics work out tomorrow.  I hear it is killer!  But hopefully I can “bring it” and get back into shape!!

 So.  Here I am.  While I would be surprised if anyone actually read this, but I am hoping that keeping a weight loss journal of sorts will keep me motivated and on track with my goals.